Changes

One thing you can always count on is changes. Changes in your life, changes in your loved ones lives, changes in your appearance (I'm getting that dreaded double chin - YUK) and changes in your relationships.

Sometimes changes are for the better, sometimes not. But, that the Nature of the Beast so they say.

A change for B and I recently was the death of his mom. I called her Mom when I was with her and Mom Hess the rest of the time. Now, I know lots of women who are less than fond of their mother-in-laws. I wasn't one of them. I loved Mom Hess a lot and know she loved me. This is not to say Mom Hess couldn't be a real challenge from time to time but I don't know one of us who can say, any and all of our loved ones are a challenge, from time to time. Anyways, Mom Hess could be and often was - abrasive. She was also brutally honest. You never had to wonder where you stood with her because she'd tell you. She could hurt your feelings if you let her. However, Mom Hess was also the strongest person I've ever met. Any one of the tragedies she had been through in her life could have been enough to break a person. She buried three of her kids and one grandson but it was the last tragedy which was the hardest on her. Losing B's Dad was hard on us all but especially Mom Hess. He's been gone almost 10 years now and is still thought of so often by B and I. About a year ago Mom Hess was going through a bad time with her kidneys she told me how much she missed him and she was ready to go and join him. Just before Christmas she got her wish. Although we were sad to see her go, I think we were both glad to know she had gone to join Dad. Know what I mean? Mom Hess was always very good to me and I will miss her.

Another change for me is the occurrence of yet another rift in my family. I don't want to go into any detail other than to say it's caused yet more trouble for a family already drowning. What I do want to say about recent events is this: I don't believe in 'conditional' love. I don't think it's right for someone (anyone) to say "I can only love you if you do this, or believe this, or whatever". I don't love that way. I don't put conditions on people I love. If I love them, they are free to be themselves. Just as I am free to be myself.

I've been doing some research on a 'religion', and I use that term loosely, as of late and will be posting some interesting facts soon. While I hear it's a mistake to talk about religion, I think you'll understand more of why I've chosen to do so once I get into it. And, your always free to skip those posts should you want to. One of the things I just love about the Internet is the information on it and the freedom to research or skip the information you just don't want to deal with.

Creative me............... Haven't done much as of late. Family trouble and events have left me more depressed than cheerful. A bright spot has been some kittens born at our house. I've been making a few 'cat coozies' to go with the babies when they leave but not much else. Have a wallpaper job coming up which will give me a little extra spending money - who can be depressed about extra spending money! Am exercising again. YIPPEE! Seriously, I know it's good for me, just not that much fun all the time.

Well, that's all for today. Next time I hope to add some new pictures and then on to the other issue I talked about.

Take care everyone.